It's funny. I saw a comment on the People magazine article published last friday, saying that I'm "not a good dancer" and my "dancing looked forced." And that made me think about how I mentioned declaring war on Saturday Night Live, Napoleon Dynamite, and Jim Carrey silly dancing white guy tropes. What's so ironic is that sometimes I sometimes become what I hate. Isn't that crazy? Like as a performer, I know being "extra" is going to get people's attention, and get me hired, etc and by being "extra" instead of natural like if i'm dancing for myself at a club or party, I kind of become the stereotypes i feel a passionate mission to break and rail against. And it makes me thing how sometimes we all become what people tell us we are, growing up, or while we're learning things. But there are moments (and they are precious) when even if you feel like you're somehow becoming what people expect you to be, that you "allow" yourself a moment NOT to be that, and be what YOU want to be. But in order to do that, it takes practice, and a love for whatever it is you're trying to do. You have to ask yourself the tough questions, "Why do I like this? Who am I to participate and do this thing?" And when you realize that the answer is some variant of "because i feel this shit, and i see in my mind's eye moving, speaking, playing, singing differently," and you ALLOW yourself to find that new path, awkard warts and growing pains and all, oh then you become dangerous, and you're closer to liberating your spirit to a higher plane than this existence. That's what people become most attracted to, if not the freedom, the ablility to relate to something "beyond yourself." Let's go get that shit together!
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